things have been getting worse.
something happened with jeffs email to where bad pictures were sent to his friend lisa? he thinks i hacked him email and sent the pictures...i could see the blame being on me but he wont let me prove it...i had left my laptop at home on accident and was meaning to go get it today, but my mom told me never to come home so here i am...still at ua....i figured out it was maddy and maddy brown using my laptop and i dont know how, i wish i did, but maddy brown had some code to disable email logins or something. im in huge trouble with my mom over the pictures and i had to beg maddy to just apologize to jeff. she says she texted him today but who knows....
something strange is going on, or so it seems....the night of orientation jeff was telling me not to worry about lisa but he left me the next day....what happened? jeff has always seemed like an incredibly faithful guy so i dont think he would have gone to orientation with the intention of leaving me....the day before he left we had dinner with his parents and it went wonderfully. he told me how his mom approved of us getting married someday....i loved it. i was scared for his orientation, and that night he comforted me and told me he planned on getting a promise ring...i honestly do love jeff. i want that future with him more than anything in the world. i try to get over him.....but if you really love someone you find you cant. i think jeff loves me, i think....maybe this girl has him in a state of lust? maybe she really is just his friend? i have no clue....he wont talk to me and i feel like i didnt just lose my love, but i also lost my best friend in the world....ive never been close to anyone like i am with jeff, and even now, without him here im still adhering to the same things as if he was....i ignore matt and tjs texts and i think about him constantly...all i can do right now is prove i didnt send the emails and prove im loyal to him. if he has to date someone else to realize he has someone that loves him rightunder his nose...well sobeit....
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